PROCRASTINATION AT BEST

I have had this on my mind a lot lately, maybe for a couple of months now.
Today, Jean's comment made me think even more.

I wonder what it's like to look at me through someone else's eyes: to see if they see what I see.
Of course God knows me the best and then there are some who may know me more than I know myself. I've come to think more about this as I started teaching; just because there are so many times where my teacher told me to teach with more enthusiasm and expressions, when I had thought I went crazy. There are times where people tell me I'm too serious, when those were the times I was being silly, times they think I'm too silly, when I'm really being serious. Also, there are times where people think I'm such a great person when I'm really not. And then, there are times when people think I'm such a bad person when I think I'm great.......

People see me as a prayerful woman, but I'm not! Seriously, God knows...
People see me as an innocent girl, but HA, I laugh because it's not true, only God knows...
People think I'm unintelligent or intelligent, I always think I'm the opposite, but God doesn't care for that...

There's the person that I see from within and there's a person that people see from the outside: two beings that make one character for God.